hazim and his toys obsession

lightning mcqueen in 3 shapes and sizes
mater sr and mater jr

this is how much hazim love cars as i have wrote about before. the minute he comes home after he is away, he'll play straightaway with em. Though i must say i encourage his obsession by buying them for him. every related stuff with cars in many shapes and sizes is a must have for hazim, i buy what i can. There are plastic, metal and cloth made toys.

its fun seein him enjoy playing and the basketful of toys means lil compared to his CARS toys. He'll reenact the movie and adds his own script sometimes. PPl do say that the brain develops when kids play. and he did get his many vocab from the movie.
'hey lightnin, are you ready? oh yeah!'
whatever for u my son..

hazim and the chinese new year

clear blue skies ahead
our house during the stay
alas, we have arrived
one big happy family

what were we up to during the CNY 2007 hols? we were away to the inner parts of Pahang where we visited a palm oil estate owned by a prominent man in the cabinet. it was really fun, refreshing and informative .. jauh perjalanan luas permandangan. The whole ariff clan went sans hazim's uncle man cos he had exams. i must say it was worth the journey (man .. it was far) but a new experience for everybody. tho i'm not sure if most of us want to go back.

hazim said the hol was best but no way he's gonna stay there .. (in his words tho)

the city ppl forgot abt the availability of fast food joints or mamak haunts for one nite cos the kg food was superb. I could sit and eat forever. Loved the tiger prawns, nasi lemak, nasi ayam and so much more. Poor papa cos he had an allergy attack during the night becos of the prawns. Shian papa.

It was good to get together as we seldom do and it was fun to get away from the city. I bet opah and atok would be happy seein us still closeknit as ever ..

let the picchas tell the story but more are uploaded @ hazimhafiz fotopages.

hazim was happy with all the attention and that definitely made ME happy. so our CNY break was complete.

hazim and his cape

Superman returns agaiN

Are u scared?

I will never forget yesterday.

It was the day I lost my heartbeat for nearly 3 minutes.

I never thought ever that it'll happen to me.

I lost my baby.

In te*co kajang.

How we always take things for granted.

I'm sorry dear for my lack of care and attention.

Alhamdulillah we found him and we do midnite shopping so there's no crowd.

Never again. I hope.

On a lighter note, nana n om is back.

Never had I realised that I missed them so.

Now the world is complete again.

Goin back to my mushroom swiss now.

hazim and 2007 so far

fireman?
or doctor?

2007 so far has been a slow year with me still waiting which school i'll be placed. However, that'll mean the extra time i get with hazim. Who can resist another extra month break to be with him everyday .. So the things so see him emulate as he grows each day are basically my influence .. More mama also means more talking, more learning and more over indulged .. At least I'm proud with the pace of his growth .. Quite a chatterbox our son has become and his vocab overwhelms and surprises us each day ..

Just the other day, he asked tokki to sing smack that .. imagine that .. and if ppl were to ask .. opah is out tgk wayang when actually at the surau for her classes .. sabar jelah ..

Maybe once nana n om are back hajj , it'll go chaotic again.

dont have much else to tell cos i'm again having my eczema attack so excuse me i hafta go scratch myself against Dr's order ..

as of today:

listening to JT's Futuresex / Lovesounds Cd especially what goes around .. man i love the beats n i know he's gonna make it big at the grammys

reading julie garwood's slow book .. anticipating for the release of shopaholic n baby

watching f.r.i.e.n.d.s reruns sold cheap at carrefour .. i'll never get enough of them.

kill me cos i'm also watching BPBM as it ends the day after 2mrw .. I'm so the housewife i dont wanna be ..

one last note .. who the toot is singin the malay rendition of all cried out? u ruined one of my fav song .. urgh ..

changes are inevitable .. resistence is futile yet why can't i seem to take the step forward? Am i too complacent in my position?

hazim and december changes

Always the centre of attention

Girls plus pakchu kat tepi just wanna have fun

*warning: I'm in a sappy mood so this entry is gonna be long

These picchas were taken at nana's goin to hajj partay. (Tho I wont consider wearin baju kurung as party wear) As always we have such fun when all of us get 2gether and piccha takin is a MUST. U never know when u need to look back and appreciate the happy memories that u have gone thru some time in ur life plus family always drifts apart sooner or later, these treasures will take u back to the lost happy days. How sappy but december just makes me feel sad. Its the last month of the year and new year will bring big changes in our lives that it just makes me melancholic. How I wish 2006 will go on n go on .. I enjoyed it so much that its so hard to let go .. I just dread 2007.

May ajim's nana, tokchu and om gets the hajj mabrur and comes back safe n sound.

Lets leave the blues for awhile and update on hazim ..

Gosh .. what can I say .. the past week has really been both fun and testing for me .. He swipes opah's baju out of her closet just to pretend that its mack-his trailer.. (still crazy about CARs) so everyday, Opah hasta refold her clothes but since its hazim's doing, sabar jelah. I wonder until when her patience will stand.

hazim's most overused phrase must be 'tak nak kawan' this past week and he says it million times a day .. imagine our typical discourse:

mama: ajim jom mandi

ajim: tak nak kawan!

mama: ajim makan nak?

ajim: tak nak kawan!

mama: ajim jom pergi warta, mama nak pergi mcDs

ajim: jom.nak mcdunald, tak nak kawan!

I wish i can erase it from him but sometimes it does get hilarious. Another phrase he just picked up is panashla from a shampoo ad featuring hindustani actors. When its freezing in our room, its still panashla. Funny how kids pick up stuff they quite dunno the meaning but they learn as they go. Tho his speech is still gibberish at times, I love talking to him and this hols has been more meaningful seeing him growing up so fast.

So I left the place of good memories for me for good last early dec. I didnt get to say goodby officially but will do during convo. Again I leave the small college that brought such happy memories and the good friends I made along the way. . Funny how I looked back at the pics during matrix in 96, my english class taken by the stairs, how young and innocent(hah!) I was, wearing shoes I loved having worn it most of the year and having so much fun entering adulthood. Then comparing it with IPBA 2006, the same place, different ppl and I still have fun and still loving shoes and still with good friends. Will I be goin back in another decade? How I wish. That place will always have a special place in my heart and the happy memories will I keep with me. i remain sanguine tho myopic at times.

I wish I can still wake up and jump in papa's car and head for that place, bein late as usual, then up the spiral- breathtaking-asthmatic neverending stairs into our class, admire the clothes and again shoes then head out to pak langs for munchies then pretend to listen attentively to lectures then pic snapping-gossip mongering and then head back after lunch again talkin and talking til papa picks me up at the end of the day. Perhaps .. perhaps .. but naah.. hafta move on n see where fate takes me .. whether down south(God forbid) or staying put here as I have always made sure of .. we'll just wait and see

to u girls (u know who u are)

Listen little child

There will come a day

When you will be able, able to say

Never mind the pain, all the aggravation

You know there's a better way

For you and me to be

Look for the rainbow in every storm

Fly like an angel heaven sent to me

Goodbye my friend(i know you're gone, you said you're gone but i can still feel youHere)

It's not the end(you gotta keep it strong before the pain turns into fear)

So glad we made it, time will never change it, no no

Just a little girl, big imagination

Never letting no one take it away

Went into the world, what a revelation

She found there's a better way for you and me to be

Look for the rainbow in every storm

Find out for certain love's gonna be there for you

You'll always be someone's baby

Goodbye my friend(i know you're gone, you said you're gone but i can still feel youHere)

It's not the end(you gotta keep it strong before the pain turns into fear)

*suddenly felt like a spice girl :)

to sarah n dinah, I know u girls sometimes check out hazim's progress in here and just wanna tell u that I heard about what went on in ur lives. remember that ur family esp this big sis of urs will always be there for u no matter what. u know the song by mariah-thru the rain-? I heard it just today n thot of u girls. "I can make it through the rain..I can stand up once again..On my own and I know..That I'm strong enough to mend..And every time I feel afraid..I hold tighter to my faith..And I live one more day..And I make it through the rain..

Just hang out tite k n pray that Allah gives u the strength, serenity and patience to let go of what love most and prepare for the good things that u have yet to endeavour and experience. I know my trials and tribulations are ahead of me but our family love is strong and I'm not alone. God.. how we miss opah n atuk so much kan?

peace out til next time

p/s: ain bought cosmo n I just bought galaxie, what does that mean.. anybody? times like these, i just gotta love paris'-nothing in this world.

hazim and his emancipation

hazim now has his balls all tucked good in its place .. for those who didnt know the situation b4, lets just say that it was elsewhere.

anyways eversince, he's more active that usual and much more talkative. guess he's overexcited that mom's around. just a bit handful but i'm learning to control him by the day and now i salute opah for doin a good job this pass year. i'll be takin over the rein pretty soon and kinda anticipating it to turn out with flyin colours.

moms news: not getting the charmed life i've been havin b4 after all. i just got news of my placement and i'll most probably be heading south after this. kinda bummed cos most of the others got their hometown but thats their rezeki .. and i'll dont know whats ahead of me. we never see the silver lining that Allah has planned for us till the eleventh hour so another anticipation and great expectations comin ahead. just worried about papa tho. if my appeal (cam court case plak) turns sour .. i hafta pack up everything and head down south laa plak .. dem. at least i know pit's there .. urgh .. dunt wanna think about it for the mo.

fav song of the hour my chemical romance .. the black parade .. cos ajim can belt it out .. dead surprised when he sang it in the car one day.

To carry on

We'll carry on

Though you're dead and gone believe me

Your memory will carry on

We'll carry on

And though you're broken and defeated

reading jane green's life swap .. cannot put it down .. i wonder if i get the same chance , who will i swap my life with .. most unlikely i will .. i've experienced almost everything ..

cinta was great .. felt said bout the teacher part .. it feels so good 2b a teacher .. ain n me was really proud but wonder if ppl will treat us well like that when we grow old .. ain maybe .. but me??

peace out!

hazim and his eid

i think i can fit into the camera ..

i must admit that i'm being a tad overwhelmed with hazim lately. my .. my .. the older he gets, the more testing he is .. i guess I'm finally seeing the downside of me working compared to my domestic manager days .. he is less attached to me and when I'm home .. he seeks attention by throwing tantrums or behaving unbecomingly .. despite so .. after his naughty acts, he'll be begging for forgiveness speedily and turn back to bein my angel .. ajim .. ajim .. how its hard for mama to stick to her principles around u .. all my resolutions in good parenting out the window. i still love u more each day muchkins .. my ava adore ..

well our raya turned out swell .. i got evrything i wanted (shows how much raya means to me) and got to do the raya rounds and open house visits .. satisfied all family members .. penat jugak but hafta commit cos hazim must know all his unc, aunts, cousins, toks and so forth .. so friends were kinda left out til after exam. terrible me didnt even peek my revision books till the raya hols ended then still had time to have friends over for raya prior 2 days to the exam ... somehow .. miraculously i had enough time to cover all .. all the time wide awake paying attention in class was worth it .. some did stick in my mind .. after exam .. got kissm to attend so had fun shopping for its bag and shoes .. how its a must for me .. now everybody's runnin off to get new shoes for kissm .. teha n lin wud understand .. shuz sistaz o mine ..

had another nostalgic moment just now after seein 604b girls having fun gyrating their bodies to shaggy .. gosh .. somehow i remembered the cool sistas at uni .. kak syd, kak wendy, kak hani(what isit with me and older ppl), anis and diha .. how cool our rooms were .. the overplayed cds (jika, life in mono, belinda carlisle, itsy bitsy tiny weenie yellow polkadot bikini).. the talcum poker, halloween parties and just hangin around .. reminisced our eating sessions, lookin at ppls shoes and bags, and so much more. all the girls have moved on and we will never be the same as in our youth but i'm proud to have known them and i really cherish those years .. we may not keep in touch with each other but how we we are still friends who have flown from our nest .. and grown from girls to women .. gosh how melancholic .. if i could have another day tho .. :(

we said our goodbyes to the achenese collegues last fri .. we'll remember u pur and oja .. how time flies .. i'm really gonna miss this phase of life of mine ..

so i'll be planting my fanny in a particular hall for the infamous kissm. not kiss me . trying to fight off stuckups, wet blankets and suckers for 2 weeks long .. all the best for me ..

despite bein an overplayed song .. i love mahakarya cinta and chasing cars ..

if I lay here .. if i just lay here ... would u lie with me and just forget the world ..

peace out!

hazim and his trucks and tyres

sleep tite my lil prince .. dunt worry, we have no bed bugs

I just finished reading cecilia ahern's if u could see me now ... it took me a long wait to get my hands on the book. anyways .. the book basically told a story of havin imaginary friends especially kids .. after two years and still some gibberish talk, hazim has yet to develop an imaginary friend. I guess he has enough company to entertain him. but 1 thing for sure now, he has this great love for trucks and tyres. Every truck is mac now (mac in CARS) and after tagging along papa one day to the tyre workshop and way too many pitstops, he tends to take off all the tyres of his matchbox cars and trucks. He got highly frustrated the other day cos he couldnt take the tryes of his big tractor and mr horsie. Sound effects are included in his endeavour. ajim .. ajim .. i love the way the arranges his trucks and cars in order along the side of my bed and knows to return it to the toybox later.

Now that opah has brought her arabic class to our home, the whiteboard in in the dining area and guess who's the new ustaz in town .. introducing ustaz hazim .. all he writes are scribbles but u can hear the distinctive aa, baa taa and stuff. One helluva good emulator he is. Each day to his own antics and we never could get enough of it. how I wish he doesnt grow up as fast as he is now ..

well today finally came and God how long I've been waiting for it. I made my final bow at the school and I was a bit sad when the boys came over to sing the Phantom song .. How i will cherish the days with the lazy but very behaved boys. I was weary of getting an ol boys class at first but these boys never did or say anything untowards and i am so grateful for bein placed in the ok school. well now that practicums over .. back to college .. hmm .. I wonder how we'll be ..

a big birthday shoutout to ajim's yayang .. happy 23rd .. may you'll be blessed with all the happiness in this world.

song of the day .. whassup with teriyaki boys? man its irritating to hear and damn catchy too. hate myself for humming the sing .. dam.

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